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Beautiful Hideous


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    A year in the making and recorded on two continents. The debut album from Johnathan Mooney & Christian Granquist. With bonus mixes by industrial legend Martin Bowes of Attrition and Bryin Dall this is a must-have album to add to your collection.
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No one can hear you No matter how hard you tread Nobody sees you You're like a living undead But I can still , recall the taste Of your mouth, flesh and bone More a taste of bittersweet As I walk this earth alone Please reach out and touch me No harm, it's just an embrace Can anyone feel me? Just take a look at my face! So show me a wound That a burning love can't sooth Please serve me a drink or two With the taste of my ancient youth Is there anyone, who'll show me how to breathe? Will there be anything, left for me to feel? My body is frozen It's stuck in the cold Thus slowing the process Of corroding my soul And I would do Most anything To take a breath again Just give me one more chance To show it was not in vain Is there anyone, who'll show me how to breathe? Will there be anything, left for me to feel? I'll promise anything, if I could just believe So help me Jesus, make me die or make me live
Fallen 05:45
So freedom of speech is a contradiction Is that so? Will need a change in the manner you preach But change means movement, which spells friction Didn't you know? Why, what an intricate impeach! Fallen they’re fallen Like a snowflake in thin air Defenestrated in despair Fallen, watch them fallen, Needs warmth to make them disappear Lets liquid crystals persevere And though the heart should be resilient, They say Should make your copy quite unique The way it works, is kind of brilliant In a way Leaves liquid crystals on my cheek Will you yield and this avoid? Or guilty in defense be thus destroyed? Somehow perceived how you enjoyed? Was it your refuge when annoyed?
She watches him at distance His trail can take any form In parallel existence The calm before the storm It's grinding higher so she, Revolves ethereally As it turns darker, so she, Can see he really believes “You broke your heart All by your own”, She claims “But by breaking it all, You too broke mine” She says She sees him through the doorway, Just like a thief in the night She holds her breath, and she sighs Need to stay clear out of sight “He'll never see me”, She says At least not during the day But this is nothing,” She cries “I wish I knew the right way” “So as long as I breathe, You will not be alone”, She says “I should learn to forgive But haven't got what it takes” She says And he will never know Night kept chained below But her heart is beating way too slow She burned too bright To see the light She cannot die without her soul There is no need to hide your deed As she reminds herself to breathe The cold prevents my nose from bleed And I shall learn, your heart to beat
Haunted 05:23
Nothing scares me more When twilights gleaming fades away I start preparing for A long Night's journey into day You start by asking me In a casual kind of way Your eyes are hollow yet Are burning like a bird of prey I've tried to hide To run away Although I know there is no way To make this tidal wave subside I'm yours until the morning light No possibility No bringing back from the other side Daytime tranquility It makes stay where you abide My friends and family Impressed I managed to move on My personality Disappears as daylight's gone So as the darkness closes in I hear your footsteps from afar Amidst the pizzicato strings You suck me down into the dark When you walk through me dear And show me science is a lie No mirror image to be seen As such; the gravity defied I stagger very close to fall No way that this is not for real My back is up against the wall As you approach Achilles heel Make me fly Away from here Take me through the atmosphere Another World, Another place, Make the darkness disappear
As I look upon the world we have today I see hatred, greed and doom But I consider myself fortunate, I'd say In my private little room It's a place where evil cannot tread And safer then my mother’s womb The air is peaceful; there is no more fear or dread When I go to my private room But wait a minute; there are cracks in the thin wall I've never noticed them before From the walls come arms that catch me as I fall Please go away, trespass no more I was happy here, until you arrived You render nothing more than gloom So take me away, to seek new purpose in my life And find me a new little private room Things are different here, no windows or no view What has become of my private room? I will lock the door forever And throw away the key, though it may become my tomb It’s too late to change the past, no looking back, no never I'll stay in my private room
Downtrodden 03:41
The light is fading And so am I Just counting days until I’m gone And in my wake I sense The distant scent of, A fire extinct since very long Big Sleep is greeting As a friend from days gone by I slowly yield to its embrace But though my hair is white My mouth is still red You can see it grinning in my face To all you exploited, and for those who're oppressed The whores and the cretins you shall all be blessed To all of you wretched, to all you ‘queers’ Stand tall and strong and dry your tears You sons, humiliated, rise and stay your strife Stand up, fallen daughters of the night Soon the pain will be abated, and your veins will flow of life We're standing here right beside you, In your fight
The Sweetest Betrayal (free) 04:33
So you have the impertinence Of telling me again How our lives would be easier, If we ceased to pretend Unrighteousness is to avoid, And from lying you’d refrain The way I see it, you just sentenced my life into a dead end So you tell me you must follow your heart And be sincere And that you really need some space, So you can breathe the air That may make sense For me however it's not evidently clear I’ve never heard of oxygen that can really disappear Your concept of deception had become my comfort and relief What right have you to lie, then leave me here looming in the drear? One thing I know, in order to betray there first must be belief And while a true friend stabs you in the front, You stabbed me in the rear Save your lies to whom you're dreaming of Say a prayer for the ecstasy and the bliss For each man kills the thing he loves While the coward does it with a kiss Come teach me now Just how false and cruel you well have been Deceitful, may you wake in torment And be shattered in spleen The wind will turn, And cast a shadow on he who betrays I suffer now, But am I not sure, you shall suffer always And while I' m dwelling here, In my prison and in my chains My love for you, Will Eternally Remain....


released November 8, 2013

All Songs written and produced by Johnathan Mooney & Christian Granquist
BMI/STIM except where indicated

Recorded at Single-Malt Studios, Orange County, CA & Calypso Electronique, Stockholm, SE

Mastered by Michael Hatley at Lotus Mastering, Los Angeles, CA

Cover Design & Artwork: Alex McVey

Business Management: Amanda Mooney for Goodman Mooney LLP

©2013, All Rights Reserved

“I Walk This Earth Alone”
Additional Backing Vocals by Nyari Wilson

“Before the Dark” (Avant que l'ombre)
Written by Laurent Boutonnat, Mylène Gautier & Mylène Farmer
Requiem Publishing

English Translation by Christian Granquist

“The Chauffeur”
Written by Duran Duran
Gloucester Place Music Limited

“Beautiful Hideous” (Hard on My Sleeve Mix)
Produced by Bryin Dall

“Haunted” (Another World Attrition Mix)
Produced by Martin Bowes

Johnathan & Christian would like to thank: Our significant others, loved ones and lady friends, Dave Kendall, DJ Cruel Britannia, Paul V., Bryin Dall, Martin Bowes, Cathedral 13, Jim Brady, Nightbreed Radio, Jackie Sussman, Toby Saalfield, Tiger Kohen and everyone who’s supported and followed our dark journey thus far….


“Et in Arcadia ego…”


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JOHNATHAN|CHRISTIAN Los Angeles, California

Dark Wave Doom from Christian Granquist, & Johnathan Mooney.
Citing influences ranging from The Sisters of Mercy and Joy Division to the electronic pulse of Depeche Mode and the piano of Muse, Johnathan Christian typifies the traditional dark wave sound, but with soaring, epic refrains and dramatic fugues that create a style all their own. ... more

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